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For Esmé

by For Esmé

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1.
302 04:46
city lights can you cast some shadows for me tonight i need a restless dark can we hide from who we are? and can i have another sip of that red wine and can i sit where i don't have to face my fears and i can hide away until the smoke clears i've got a gift that's got me bound i've got a guilt that keeps on bringing me down i've got a gift that's got me bound i've got a guilt that keeps on bringing me down grungy floor don't track the world in through that door over flowing sink empty glasses and i can't think can i have another sip of that red wine and can i sit where i don't have to face my fears and i can hide away until the smoke clears i've got a gift that's got me bound i've got a guilt that keeps on bringing me down i've got a gift that's got me bound i've got a gift that keeps on bringing me down you're my escape and i'm here to hide in the sound of you not sleeping at my side but as the sheets unfold, could i be so bold as to ask you to hold onto me? 'cause you've always had a hold on me, on me and i've got this gift that's got me bound i've got a guilt, can you keep it from bringing me down i've got a gift that's got me bound i've got a guilt, can you keep it from bringing me down?
2.
House Dream 02:59
wherever did you go leaving curtains blowing its snowing inside of the final scene from our house dream how did you mask my memory? does it haunt you like it haunts me? i promise that i will leave you always waiting where did you hide away leaving curtains swaying i'm waiting on you to explain the final scene of our house dream how did you mask my memory does it haunt you like it haunts me? i promise that i will leave you where did you hide me? where will they find me? oh why did you leave? where will they find my memory? oh i promise to leave you always waiting for the final scene from our house dream thought you could hide from my memory but i'll haunt you and you'll haunt me and i promise to leave you always waiting
3.
i wish that i could be filled up with grace so you'd never know when i don't know what to say i wish that i had control so you'd never know when i get so low that i start thinking like a stone thinking how you could let me go thinking i could just cut the rope and float on i could be an island, free i could be an island, would i be lonely? i wish that i was made of a mask so you'd never know when i'm glass i wish that i could have known, could have known that i could be so heavy, that i could sink so low that i'd start thinking like a stone thinking how you could let me go thinking i could just cut the rope and float on i could be an island, free i could be an island, would i be lonely? if this is just a war that i won't win can you let me know, let me go let me give in? if this is just a war that i won't win can you let me know, let me go let me give in? i could be an island, free i could be an island, would i be lonely?
4.
Cinque Terre 02:38
we climbed a mountain to look at the sea and the sun shone off green grapes and your hair moved with the breeze i looked at you and you looked back at me and i found myself wondering what i used to be so afraid of and what our bodies are made of and if ghosts walked along on the path where we stood and if we'd get to to be all we'd be if we could the sea wrapped around a town of many colours there were whispers around us but there weren't any others so we climbed back down and climbed under the covers but i hid my face once i started to wonder what i used to be so afraid of and what our bodies are made of and if ghosts walked along on the path where we stood and if we'd get to be all we'd be if we could but i've prayed to particles up in the sky trying to find my place in pages of a big book of lies but the little lights they listen, like they're alive small souls whisper secrets from the dust where they hide where there's nothing to be afraid of 'cause that's what this body is made of out of ghosts that have walked on the path where we stood they say try to be all that you'd be if you could
5.
All The Evil 04:25
i'm scared to talk because i've been taught that my words can really wound and i can't say what i am can't say what i'm not so don't ask me for the truth because i can feel your eyes and your ears on me and all i wanted was to feel your hands she said its hard to know if we're happy and i think i'm just beginning to understand i lay down and let all the evil carry me away i've given the most dangerous things all the power to make me stay around until they break me down i'm starting to know just a little too well what she's been talking about because it rings a bell that i can't seem to ring out she says her sadness is a sickness and she can't seem to find the cure i know that i meant to ask how i could help her but i never found the words i lay down and let all the evil carry me away i've given the most dangerous things all the power to make me stay around until they break me down but i keep having dreams that i can't remember and i can't seem to shake but it seems a waste of all this darkness to be lying here awake so can you tell me what it takes, what would you have me forsake to keep these highs and lies alive without breaking me down without breaking us down can't you see why i'm scared to talk because i've been taught that my words can really wound and i can't say what i am can't say what i'm not so stop asking for the truth
6.
Crime 04:10
lovely little lies can't keep you safe porcelain looks so pretty till it breaks you left no room for mistakes "think plan do" she used to say to you but you never listened anyway now all the girls you love to hate they watch, they wait because its a sin to be dissatisfied i should know, i've tried and tried and its a crime i've come to love i followed signs to a fantasy where nobody was who they said they'd be because they all love the lies, just like me so passive, perfect, pleasant, politely and it's a sin to be dissatisfied i should know, i've tried and tried and its a crime i've come to love they would probably like you better if you could be a little less pulled together he would probably like you better if you could be a little less puled together you've got to play beautiful and hard follow all the rules that you learned on the school yard keep up with the friends you fear you've got to keep your enemies nearest and dearest don't you know? well its a sin to be dissatisfied i should know, i've tried and tried and its a crime i've come to love they would probably like you better if you could be a little less pulled together he would probably like you better if you could be a little less pulled together you better pull yourself together you better you better keep it all together you better keep that smile on your face forever and ever you better pull yourself together its a crime i've come to love they would probably like you better if you could be a little less pulled together he would probably like you better if you could be a little less pulled together
7.
The Key 03:20
i've worked so hard for this heart of steel it can take it but it don't know how to give it out it can sing "la la la la" but it don't know how to shout i'm not afraid at least that's what i'd say if you could hear me if you could hear me but my silence is the lie that weighs me down my silence is the key to my cage my brain has learned so many words so i could use them to say what i'm feeling instead of kneeling at your feet la la la la like i don't know how to scream i'm not afraid at least that's what i'd say if you could hear me if you could hear me but my silence is the lie that weighs me down my silence is the key to my cage like a stone, hard and alone i'm paralyzed not by fear, but by what i hold dear to me it's cowardly to hesitate when i know the way to my escape we all know that i could run i've got breath in my longs i've got fire inside a voice to keep alive i've got the words in my heart so why can't i start to set myself free set myself free but my silence is the lie that weighs me down my silence is the key to my cage
8.
Alice 04:35
if i could grow everything you need to help you sleep, to keep you breathing i'd be kneeling in the dirt trying to make it work i'd be reading every word trying to make it work out i'd bring the water and i'd bring the light i would roll up my sleeves, watch it grow alright i'd bring the water and i'd bring the light i would roll up my sleeves, watch it grow alright but luck follows me, luck follows me gotta roll up my sleeves, roll up my sleeves 'cause i've got a little dirt, got to make it work for me so i'll bring the water, i'll bring the light going to roll up my sleeves, watch it grow alright i'll bring the water and i'll bring the light going to roll up my sleeves, watch it grow alright travel the world she said, you can live by the sea travel the world she said, but you've got to roll up your sleeves 'cause luck follows me, luck follows me luck follows me, luck follows me got to roll up my sleeves, roll up my sleeves 'cause i've got a little dirt, got to make it work for me i'm going to harness that hurt, make it work for me i'm going to harness that hurt, make it work for me i'm going to harness that hurt, make it work for me i'm going to harness your hurt, make it work for me i'll be your water, i'll be your light i'm going to roll up my sleeves, it will all be alright 'cause i can grow everything you need to help you sleep, to keep you breathing i'll be kneeling in the dirt trying to make it work i'll be reading every word trying to make it work trying to make it work
9.
i found a place with the sun on my face and the windows rolled down it starts to fade as the gold turns to grey i wish i could make it stay around i'd like to buy us a little more time if i could make this mine if that would make this mine but it's a lonely place in my head tonight and all the lights burn red tonight as i try so hard not to complain but this quiet little riot just ain't the sane way you've got a real job and i'm just that slob with my bottle, my books, my guitar but you're getting paid to play somebody's maid while i play at becoming some star but i'd like to buy us a little more time if i could make you mine, if that would make you mine but it's a lonely place in my head tonight and all the lights burn read tonight as i try so hard not to complain but this quiet little riot just ain't the sane way if happiness is a headspace, do you know the way? and if love is a place can i stay there with you? don't want me to lose any sleep over you you don't want me to lose any sleep over you but it's the least i could do he says it's easy to love me it's easy to be free it's easy to be ourselves but if easy is the only thing keeping us here it would be easy for somebody else and he's got a ticket, got a ticket to get out of jail free but it's not a ticket, not a ticket to a claim on me but if happiness is a headspace, can you lead the way? and if love is a place can i stay there with you don't want me to lose any sleep over you you don't want me to lose any sleep over you but it's the least you could do because these lips they're tired from never getting used and these hands, they're not sure how to hold onto you and the space between fingers, it longs to be filled like the cold, crisp sheets that are giving me these chills we can sleep when we're dead won't you be with me instead? we can sleep when we're dead won't you be with me instead? (show me the place where you feel safe we can stay awake, we can stay awake we can sleep when we're dead) 'cause if happiness is a headspace than you lead the way and if love is a place? well you know i will stay there with you don't want me to lose any sleep over you you don't want me to lose any sleep over you i'm not scared to lose a little sleep over you i'm not scared to lose a little sleep over you its the least i could do its the least we could do (show me the place where you feel safe we can stay awake, we can stay awake we can sleep when we're dead)
10.
250 02:27
which way to the window in the woods? would you take me back there if you could?

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released July 16, 2013

Music and Lyrics written by Martha Meredith

Keys and Vocals - Martha Meredith
Guitar - Aaryn Alford
Bass - Kevin Blair
Drums - Shane Lemieux
Strings - Mika Posen
Male Vocals - Jos Fortin & James Bunton

Produced by James Bunton
Mastered by Bova Sound

Album Artwork by Spencer Cathcart, Charles Bierk, Nick Bierk and Martha Meredith

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For Esmé Toronto, Ontario

Righteous Woman is a feminist awakening and excavation of the voices within, repositioning the multitudes of womanhood, to push back against the patriarchy, to offer the possibility of living on one's own terms.

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